I go in cycles. I haven't been sleeping well for a few weeks. My place is a disaster. I go out a few times a week and the sadness goes away for a bit, but it returns. I haven't been in a serious relationship since my divorce 5 years ago. Still have debt up to my ass because of it. I don't even remember if I was happy before that. I hate my job, it's slowing killing me. Not because its too busy or my co-workers are assholes. It's because I have nothing to do! I sit here for 8 hours a day doing almost nothing. I just accepted a new job out of state, but I have to pass a background check for it. Because of how deep the check goes I have no idea if it will be approved or not. Up to 3 months of waiting for approval.