My life has been shitty for me the past couple of years. Friend and I got caught with his bong, I didn't get in as much trouble as he did but our parents talked and that was the start of the downfall. My parents were already not talking to eachother a lot anymore, and I stayed in my room for rediculous hours of time because the energy in the rest of the house wasn't worth putting myself in. I never did good in school, and my dad would take things from me instead of trying to help me fix the problems. I remember one thanksgiving I didn't help them put the Christmas tree up and I came out to get a drink and he started whipping the Christmas lights everywhere, threw the tree over the balcony to my stairs and the lights from the tree got stuck on the chandelier and it was a mess. Chairs thrown at me, choked in my yard for stupid things. I remember log ago I was playing scooby-doo clue and I jokingly accused him of cheating and he slapped me in the face hard. But back to the downfall, it was a few days before my birthday(my 18th, it was the summer before my senior year) I give him a portion of money that I owed him, because he signed me up for remedial classes for credits I didn't need. At this point I had lost all my stuff, phone, computer, Xbox. ( and I'm actually kinda glad this happened, I got to watch the greatness that is breaking bad every day). I had to use my moms computer to do the work, and I was fed up with everything. I took it upon myself to buy my own laptop to do what I loved. He couldn't take it from me because it was mine, and it was my escape from the life I had. I was taking a lot of adderal, vivanse, Ritalin, smoking weed, Oxi, and lots of cigarettes. Off of all of that besides weed and cigarettes now which is good, I'm glad I didn't go down a bad path. The day I gave my dad 80 dollars was the one that changed my life. It was September 7th, I gave him the money and went back to my room. When I was handing him the money he was pouring out white label. I went back to my room and he comes in and barges the door open talking s out how it "isn't about the money". And things started to get aggressive. I was keeping my cool, trying to make him see how stupid he was being. He shoved me back into a seat, and I just looked at him. My mom started to push him off and he pushed her in the chest hard. It was really psychologically abusing and only like half physical which I'm greatful for, because I have a good head on my shoulders. I stood up to him and got nose to nose with him because what he did wasn't good with me. He kept telling me to hit him because he knew I wanted to. And right at that moment I had so much pent up anger over the years that I would've fucking killed him. But I knew I had to prove a point and played my own mind games. I told him I didn't have to, because I was better than that and than him. Next day, I moved out to live with a friend for the next three months. Got caught by my mom with 7 grams of weed in the car she was letting me drive while on my way to ask a girl out( I was buying flowers with her with some friends) and when I went inside she searched my car. Later asked that girl out just for her to dump me two days later after playing with my feelings for her own amusement. Met another girl who took my virginity, and after a month of dating she cheated on me with her ex. I was at a low and things melt going wrong with me. I stupidly took her back, two months later she drops all contact with me for a solid month. She had bad depression issues but a lot of it came back to hurt me. I watched her change. And then I took her back once again and that lasted the longest. But a lot of psychological abuse again. School was going shitty for me, dropped out. And then the summer that followed started to be the best thing for me. I decided I needed to go back to school for ME this time. I've always tried to be there for people, and I genuinely enjoy being nice to as many people as I can. We have one life and we have to enjoy it, and I couldn't let shit like that keep me down. Everything will always get better. Believe me. Everyone fights their own struggles but you can get through anything. You just can't give up.