[Serious] If you had taken your life one year ago, what beautiful things would you have had missed out on?

Late to this post but I've needed to get this off my chest for awhile now, sorry in advance for making so long and meandering. Almost exactly a year ago I literally did try to take my own life, and I'm thankful every day that it didn't take. A year ago I was hopeless and lost, felt like my life is meaningless and that I was a failure with no future. I was obese and had health problems that felt like they were slowly killing me when I'm nowhere near old enough for that. I had just lost my job. I've also been dealing with depression pretty much since I was 12. And on top of all that I had just found out (while at my best friend's wedding) that my toxic, manipulative GF of 5 years (now ex, obviously) had been cheating on me for months.

I'm not religious in the slightest, but trying to end it and failing made me think maybe there's a reason it didn't work. So, very long story short, I decided to make some changes and see if I could figure out how to be happy before trying again. I lost almost 100 lb and got down to a healthy weight. I stopped drinking for 6 months. I spent the entire spring and summer reconnecting with some of my closest friends.

Losing weight and getting in shape, something I literally thought was impossible, gave me the confidence to finally apply to law school, and I ended up getting a full scholarship to my first choice school where I've met some absolutely incredible friends. I know exactly what I want to do with my JD, and for the first time in my adult life I feel like I have a purpose and that I'm somewhat smart and competent. I'm dating someone way better than my ex, someone who actually treats me like a person. I spent a big part of the summer going to music festivals with my brother and closest friends, and I've never been happier than when I was at Bonnaroo, watching Childish Gambino and surrounded by the people I care about most. Working out and exercising has gone from something I dread to something I look forward to every day. Instead of being insecure and self-conscious, my confidence is through the roof in almost any setting. I've discovered I like being outdoorsy rather than just sitting in my room when I have free time. And all of this isn't even getting into the intangible changes in my mental health and how I view the world compared to a year ago, but basically I'm an entirely different person in the best way possible and for the first time since I was a kid, I feel truly happy and content with my life almost all the time. Some days are still rough, depression never really goes away, but I win that fight every single day now and the depression doesn't control my life anymore. If I had given up a year ago, I would have missed out on getting my life back and being the happiest I've ever been

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