I keep deleting this and retyping it trying to make myself seem like less of an asshole, but there's really no way to redeem myself here so fuck it. I deserve the downvotes...

So I'm kind of going through this now. I'm jealous of my friend. It's shallow, and I'm ashamed, but there it is. It's the truth. She's skinny and pretty and I have body image issues (that I'm trying to work on!). When she wears my clothes, she looks better in them than I do. I get envious. Obviously, thats not her fault. I'm just dumb.

All of my guy friends fall in love with her and it annoys me. For one thing, it's probably jealousy, but mostly it's annoying hanging out with people who act differently when she's around. It bugs me, and I feel like an extra wheel. Not her problem, but mine.

She gets along better with my mom than I do. Once again, not her problem, just me being pathetic.

She has the ability to get on anyone's level, which is an awesome quality, but it's sucks when my friends become better friends with her. Again, she's in the clear here and it's all me. She can't help that she's awesome.

Well I get depressed sometimes in the winter, and this winter, I sort of took its out on her. I didn't yell or say mean things, but I did tell her a few of the problems I was having,and I sort of backed off from talking to her, because I was not being good to her. She didn't deserve it. I needed to get over myself, and work on my attitude. I decided to quit smoking, and figure my shit out.

I think now, I'm much better, but we're just fading apart, and it's definitely all my fault. I'm saddened, but she doesn't deserve to be treated badly and I'm an asshole. Obviously, I wasn't constantly mean to her, and most of my conflict is internal, but I'm not going to try and defend myself here.

Sorry, but it feels good to admit it, regardless of how it's taken. I guess I thought you guys should get the asshole friend's point of view.