For suffering from visible excess facial hair (I'm a girl). I've had it checked out and my doctor said that its common for south Asian women to suffer from it. It was never pointed out to me nor did I notice it myself when I was in primary school. In primary school I had a good group of friends and was happy. Come secondary school and everything changed for the worse. When I moved onto secondary school I was happy as I had my group of friends and was excited for the new journey. Unfortunately they were not in any of my classes. I've always been the quiet girl, at every parents evening it was always mentioned and even in my progress reports. The teachers always said that they know I know the answer but I never put my hand up to answer. I've just always been shy, something that I still deal with now but has lessened luckily. So as I was saying, none of my friends were in my classes so I had managed to make a friend who was also in my form class. I used to hang out with her and we got along quite well. But my friends didn't like the fact that I had a new friend and that a hung out with her during our breaks. If I recall correctly they even said I had to choose between them and her. This was in year 7, we were only 11 years old so I now understand that at that age things like that happen. I don't remember what answer I gave them but from then we weren't as close anymore. First few weeks were ok but for some reason there was this girl that started to bully me. She actually threatened to punch me if I didn't give her my lunch money. My mum used to give me about £5 in change because I was allowed to go out for lunch. I remember one day going to the shops with friends during lunch, about to pay for a packet of crisps and seeing no money in my purse. There it was my yellow smiley face purse, empty. I put the crisps back and made an excuse saying I wasn't hungry. I think one of the girls I was with let me have a sweet she had bought. I kept thinking how did she get my money when I didn't give it to her. Then I realised, drama class. In drama there were no tables or chairs so we have to put our coats and bags in the corner of the room, all piled on top of each other. That's how she must have taken my money. After that in every drama class I would always hide my purse in my cardigan sleeve so that it didn't happen again. Then there was the b crew. It's obvious what the b stands. I don't know how it started but I remember the main one, who I will name neha, in an IT class I think, she mentioned my long sideburns and called me hairy. There was a boy sitting between us who used to be in my primary school and we were good friends ,and as a typical boy he started saying "oooooh what are you gonna do QuietOne12", I don't remember what I said in reply but it must have been something like "why are you saying that, what did I do to you?". I think this all started in year 8 because that's when our classes started to mix. Also these were the years when msn messenger and hotmail were the hype and we would all rush home at the end of the day to talk to each other. So neha had pointed out that I was hairy and that's when I was then called hairy by that boy who used to be my friend, K, and another boy who I was really good friends with, F, and my family knew his family. It was either F or neha who started to call me"hairy canary". I didn't expect that from them and was quite upset. I mean we were such good friends in primary, we would play during breaks,have fun in class and would always talk after school. In the B crew was Neha the main tormentor, Sami who was kind of ok, Natz who was kind of second in bullying me after neha, Mina who was basically a follower and said mean stuff to me just to fit in and Hima who was actually the nice one but she didn't do much to stop the bullying. Slowly my group of friends from primary were all turned against me. I remember sending an email to one of my friends saying that neha had something against me for some reason and for her not to listen to her. Surprise surprise my friend ended up telling neha about the email I sent and in maths while doing our work neha made fun of me for it. Again I think I asked her why she was doing all this. Mostly because of her the rest of the students didn't really talk to me and made little digs at me for no reason. My hair also used to be very thick and curly and every morning my mum would brush through it to get the tangles out and put it in a tight ponytail. That meant my hair was very poofy. Neha called me "bushy" because of that. In a PSHE class we were watching a film and K was also there along with Mina. K had one of those mini fans and he thought it was funny to turn the fan on and put it in my hair. As my hair was thick the fan got stuck. Mina was kind of nice and helped me take it out. In a Project 7 class ( basically history, geography, r.e put together) natz and Sami were there along with the M. They were sitting together while I sat with my friend when M all of a sudden said "what did you say to D, she isn't talking to me anymore." D was a new student who was also in the class next to us. The only time I had ever spoken to D was to say sorry during p.e when we were playing hockey and I kept hitting her feet with my hockey stick. I said to M that I didn't say anything and she said that I did because D said that some short Asian girl said it to her. Natz was also a short Asian girl so I knew it had to have been her. M said to me to swear to god that I didn't say anything, so I did, but M still didn't believe me. She said that at the end of class I had to go to D and say sorry. Just so that she didn't beat me up or anything I said I would even though I had done nothing wrong. At the end of class I said sorry to D but I think even she was confused as to why I was saying that. While I said sorry M, Natz and Sami were standing behind me to make sure I said it. After that I walked off to my next class. Now this next bit is what gets to me the most compared to every thing else I've written about. As I had said that those years msn messenger was the hype. Well one afternoon, after I had come back from school I went onto the computer and went straight to talk to my friends. Someone new had added me and started talking to me. I didn't know who it was and the name they had put up was something like "sweet killer". I must have asked who they were and then they started saying stuff along the lines of that I'm hairy, nobody likes me, that I have no friends etc. The next day everyone was talking about "sweet killer" as quite a few people had that person add them and say stuff to them. I figured out that it was Natz who made that account and said all that because her msn messenger name and other social media account names were similar to that persons name. During a break Natz and neha had stopped to talk to me about "sweet killer" and kind of gave themselves away by mentioning something that the person said to me in that convo. I didn't say anything to them because there really was no point. A few days later I was talking to a friend from primary school and hadn't talked to her in ages. She told me that she heard no one really liked me and that I had no friends. I messaged back saying "why are you saying that and who told you that?" She replied back kinda rude saying "I was only just telling you what I heard." I don't think we talked after that. In year 9 the first friend I made at secondary school left to go to an all girls school so I was all alone. All of a sudden Natz and Sami were nice to me and said that since that girl is gone I can work with them in a group and that they would hang out with me in class. I was really shocked thinking if they had some sort of plan to embarrass me but Sami was really nice and they didn't let me feel alone except for a few classes where they hung out with their other friends. Come to year 10 I started to straighten my hair and left it down. I made new friends and was really disappointed that by year 11 I had made such good friends that I had fun with and laughed a lot with but only had a couple of months left with them.

After I finished school and moved onto college my brain decided to remove the some memories from year 7 to year 9, which is why what I've written seems jumbled.

Sorry that what I've written is long. As I was typing I couldn't stop. I've never told anyone what fully happened in school. I feel a bit relieved after writing all this but there's quite a bit more to the story. Also sorry if there are mistakes. I'm on my phone and can't really edit all this properly. Once I get to my laptop I will edit it all. I just really wanted to post this so that I got it off my chest.