I'm sometimes thinking of life in the grander scheme of things and the goals I want to pursue in the next few years. I am currently 26 and there are things I definitely want to achieve before my 30th, but with covid and the current economic situation not everything I want is viable.

- Buying my first house (currently renting, quite cheap though, so grateful for that)
- Getting a longtime GF that I hopefully can build a family with (Even though I see myself/get seen as a genuinly loving and kind type I have absolutely zero luck in this apartment)
- Increasing my circle of relationships which has just been thinning over the past few years due to growing apart and covid
- Working more on the improvement of my local community, which I did prior to covid, but don't do anymore.

And not being able to meet those goals, regardless of circumstances, sometimes makes me feel sad. Even though I am an optimist at heart thinking it will all be allright, even though my track record does prove otherwise.