[Serious] What would you do if you were me?

Ok so I've been with my SO for well over a year and a half. We live together, we're engaged and I love him. He's always been secretive over his phone and has explained that a previous girlfriend made his life hell over it so now doesn't let anyone on it which if fair. I've had my own share of fucked up relationships that have damaged me emotionally ect. So anyway. I've been ill recently with a terrible pain, makes it hard to do anything especially sex and/or other strenuous stuff. I noticed when ordering new sheets for our bed on his phone (mine wouldn't work and he let me use it) a URL for chaturbate popped up (a site where you can watch people masturbat, have sex, indulge in fantasy's for money) and it really hurt... I'm quite open for porn but this is different, you talk to these people, they're actually doing it for you... I explained my upset and he put it off. The day before surgery (to fix my illness mentioned earlier) he tried to tempt me into sex but I could only think about That website and told him I was still angry. Now I've had the surgery I literally cant do anything for a while and I feel like he's becoming more frustrated with me but I'm not sure what to do. Every time I try to talk about how it makes me feel he shuts off... Ideas?

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