Thank you so much for your heartwarming comment. It really helped me a lot during this time. I agree with this "it's not you, it's me" excuse. I will admit that - I also made some mistakes, I also had and have some things to work on. I told him I was willing to work on them, but he would always say I didn't have to change anything, and he said it in our last messages ever too. This made me feel horribly bad though. For some reason, I feel as though I have done something that killed our relationship, something that made him feel like he was not good enough, but sadly I will probably never know what it was .. I knew he loved me and that he never wanted to hurt me. Of course, I loved him too. I get the feeling we both have hurt each other. Not purposely of course. I wish I could talk to him about it, but now it's too late ..