So.. she texts me "im here, in the parking lot"
I immediately panic, anxiety high as fuk.. go figure out what to wear to go and meet her in parking lot.. I get to parking lot.. shes not there.. I call her, she says she left because she was waiting 20 minutes. I said I only got a text a few mins ago (I did). Anyways.. she came back and we walked to my apartment.
She gets to my apartment, starts looking around and saying how its nice, just like her old apartment. We talk about it for a bit before she asks me whats on the tv and we sit down and decide what to watch (yes srs) We pick this movie: http://popspoken.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/pay-the-ghost-2.jpg
we sit through the entire movie (1 hour 24 minutes) I didnt put my arm around her or anything..I wanted to, but I felt like she wasnt attracted to me for some reason.. the apartment is super hot for some reason.. its never hot. I am so uncomfortable sitting on my sht couch.. I should throw it out because the wood is broken at the bottom and you sink into it.
The shtty ass movie ends, she gets up and goes to washroom.. I stretch and assume she is going to leave, I dont care, I am used to being a failure and I wasted time and couldnt make a move.
She walks back into living room and says "how long can I park in parking lot?" because there was a limit in the parking. I stand awkwardly scrolling through my smart tv menu while turned the other way. I start trying to make some conversation, asking her about her life,work etc etc.
She says what should we do now?, and I THINK I said not sure while doing something on the laptop. She randomly says: "you really are shy arent you, wow, very interesting" and starts to ask stuff like "are you nervous? why? am I scary?" I just randomly say some awkward stuff as usual (women usually laugh at anything I say, not because im funny.. but because I look awkward/shy)
after a while of her talking about how I am shy and asking me questions..
she asks me "what should we do now" again while standing around holding her back (because the couch was uncomfortable) she then asks me " want to give me a massage?" (I mentioned giving her a massage as a joke in text earlier in the week)
And I said sure and we both laughed.
she said "I will lay down here"
she lays down and I start massaging her lower back and she starts laughing and I laugh too. I massage her for a bit and she says "more gentle, haha" she then says I dont think its helping, is that a hard area to massage? and I said yeah actually. she says where is a easy area to massage? and I said, your shoulders.
I start massaging her shoulders and she moans and says "yeah, that feel good" (Chinese accent) she then says "you can give full body massage?" and laughs and I say yeah.
she then says its hot and takes off her sweater and shes now just wearing her tube top. I start massaging her whole back and shoulder area.
she then says "are you comfortable?" and I say yeah. I do that for a good amount of time while shes watching the planet earth documentary on netflix (this is actually pretty cool, I wish I could have sat and watched it) and mention how hot it was and she said "you can take off your shirt, its ok." I stop massaging her and sit there for a sec.
I then say "can I have a massage?" and she says "ok, but I dont know how to do massage well"
she starts to feel me up and says "wow and pokes my muscles in a funny way" massages me for a bit and asks if it was good and I said "ehhh" or something like that and told her that she was massaging my shoulder wrong.
she then is sitting beside me on the bed and said "wow, your arms are very hard, must take lot work" and I said yeah, a bit. I then say you have nice arms too or something like that and feel up her arms and she says "it all fat haha"
she then pokes my chest and says "wow your boobs are hard too haha" and I laugh and said "boobs?"
she then says, "not like mine.. want to feel them, go ahead"
I grab her boob and it feels like bags of sand. I grab her other boob and it felt like another bag of sand, but I was feeling them up good, heh.
after a while she says "are you comfortable"? and I said yeah, she said "you are nervous" I said no
she then says "want to do stuff now?" and I say yes.
I sit awkwardly beside her trying to figure out how to proceed.. I slowly put my arm around her and she says "want to cuddle" I said yeah.
I hold her for a bit and she says "kiss" and I kiss her a few times and she says "youre so cute"
she then says want to get on top of me? And I said yes. I get on top of her and start kissing, making out, whatever you want to call it.. at one point she says "tongue" and then I feel her tongue in my mouth.. (I never kissed a girl before this)
after a good amount of time of doing this, she says "want to kiss my boob"? I said yeah and she laughs. I take out her left boob and put it in my mouth and suck on her titty. I pull out the right boob and start sucking on it and she randomly shivered.
After a while of doing that I notice she started to shiver and breathe differently. I stop and we look at her and we smile and she asks if I am ok and I said yes.
I then say now what?.. and I eventually slide my hand between her legs over her pants and start rubbing. she starts to shiver and breathe differently again and says "you know what you doing" I then begin switching from making out with her and her nipple , while rubbing between her legs.. she starts moaning and stuff.
She then tells me to put it under her pants and I do this. I realize.. oh, its wet.. yeah, they do that.. and after a while of doing this and hear moaning and stuff like that, I tell her I cant get in there good (because her pants are tight and I cant move my hand good) I then begin to pull of her pants and do that.
I then started to speed it up while making out and stuff, and she was grabbing my back muscles and back of my head a lot while moaning and shaking. I did this until she moved my hand away and she just rested. she did this twice, so I assumed she got off twice that way?
I then went back to it and she said "want to take off your pants" I do this and get back in bed with her and continue to make out and "rub her"
she then starts trying to jack me off and like I suspected.. my dick was dead. My penis was in its smallest soft state and wasnt budging.. she said something like "too much porn?" or something like that and I said yeah, haha
she then said "maybe too nervous?" I said maybe.
she said maybe try to relax and started to rub my head as she was slowly grabbing my dink
It was dead and I mean dead.. it prolly lookd really small and pathetic as she was grabbing at it. hope she knows that is not how it will always be!
eventually we stop and she says "its ok, maybe we did too much today, we did a lot"
we start to get dressed and she eventually heads towards the door, says bye doesnt give me a chance to hug or kiss or anything and left.
I texted her at about 9:30 asking if her car wasnt towed or anything because she stayed at my place longer than 2 hours.. and she hasnt responded since.
this is what happend.
