What a great idea op.

right now I want to move out of the place I’m staying because the underworld is after me,this is no delusion I’ve had my life threatened three times by them.I want to go a guesthouse I found but I’m too paranoid that I’ll be killed there too and it’s not homey.Id be there scared and very alone whereas right now I live with friends.It seems like every option i can think of to escape is scary to me,or I get a bad sign,or bad dream,or bad feeling about it and I’m paralysed to the point that I’ve just given up now and if they come and kill me so be it.Ive been on the run for many years, I’m tired of it now.If I didn’t get involved with the underworld this wouldn’t be happening.I wish this was a delusion.All I can do is eat popcorn and wait for my death.