this part always gets me

FacebookTwitter Embed Follow [Intro: Kelly Price] Throughout my life No matter what I've done You've been merciful and your love endureth Through all things For that I am eternally grateful

[Verse 1: Jay-Z] Since my date of birth bought you nothing but hurt Play those video games, stole change from ya purse Sat on the cold court bench 'til I was arraigned in ya skirt Saw the pain in ya face through you maintained a smirk All you did was motivate me; "Don't let 'em hold you back" What I do? I turned around and I sold you crack I was a bastard for that, Still I'm drowning in shame Just remember one thing now you're not to blame You was newly separated tryin' to escape ya world And through my thirst I didn't help you I just made things worse I hated me and everybody that created crack Had me thinkin' the newest kicks and the latest gat Still haven't apologized, so please play this back While I try to come to terms with such a heinous act You know in more than one way cocaine numbs the brain All I did was think about how the funds once came Then I ran across this memory and it stung the brain How can you ever destroy the beauty from which one came That's a savage you're the reason why me and these beats make a marriage Why I rhyme above average and I ain't shit Glad you got yourself together. No thanks to me Strong and beautiful the way thangs should be You must love me

[Hook: Kelly Price] You must love me... Say that you love me All I know say that you must love me Ohh yeah

[Verse 2: Jay-Z] We used to fight every night but I never would suffer Just smile my big brother's Tryna make me tougher As we grew fussing and fighting continued As I plundered through ya stuff and snuck ya clothes to school Got intense real intense as we got older Never believed it would lead to me poppin' one in your shoulder Where my rings? Knew you had it cause you took too long As Mickey, Annie and the girl that bought it looked on Huffin' and puffin' gun in my hand Told you step outside Hoping you said no but you hurt my pride Made our way down the steps Maybe you thought it was just a threat Or maybe ya life was just that crazy and you was beggin' for death Try to justify this in my young mind but the adrenaline And my ego hurt combined Drove me berzerk Saw the devil in your eyes, high off more than weed Confused I just closed my young eyes and squeezed What a sound! Opened my eyes just in time to see ya stumbling to the ground Damn! what the fuck I done now? Runnin' around in a circle thinking I'm assed out Hot gun burnin' my waist, ran straight to Jaz' house Like a stranger damn I just shot my nigga And ran off into the night as if it was not my nigga Left the scene. How could I go out that way? Still you asked to see me in the hospital the next day You must love me