I'm not okay and I don't exactly know why and I'm sorry I can't go get the whole family coffee right now or do yard work or hang out with my sister. I just want to go to the gym first then I will. No I'm not selfish it's just the only thing that makes me happy anymore and I can't help that I breakdown like twice a day. Also I'm sorry your having trouble with your asthma the past month and your worried mom but it's mostly.your fault for being out if shape and eating poorly for years and I have offered countless times to help make a simple workout program for you that will start of easy and you let me down and give up everytime. Also to my ex gf that was my friend first and then we dated. You did so many horrible things to me and it really fucking hurt and messed up my head and for some reason I still want to be your friend but I can't and now I have no one to talk to about all this and you also ruined how I look at myself when I see myself in a mirror. I only see flaws. I was so nice to you and helped you whenever you needed and delt with your anxiety attacks and depression so nicely and never got mad about it and you took it all for granted. I just want to meet people who are nice. Also fuck hookup culture. I'm 21 and I just want to meet a girl at a party or elsewhere talk and exchange numbers then take her on an actual date. I hate hookup culture. Some chick literally shoved her hand up my shirt at a party and started touching my abs (not a brag. I work out but am skinny. Abs are all about your diet) and I was like can you not and walked away. How hard is it just to meet someone. Life's hard. Thats my rant. I'll move on.