nah thats now how it works. My life is negative in general. not my fault but i was born unlucky. being poor, ugly and suffering from disorders.

i didnt say i'm suicidal or something like that, and yes i'm trying to enjoy my life as much as possible. I have some hobbies, i play tin whistle and guitar, i'm amateur photographer. but i know there is something wrong with me because these kind of loneliness is not normal. i mean i literaly have no one to talk. thats why i created this reddit account.

it wont get better tho. when you are ugly people dont want to waste thier time with you. so the chanches are really low and i honestly dont want to waste their time as well. I dont think i'm mentaly stable anymore.

i will turn 20 in july btw.