Two months since...

Hey, I'm truly sorry, reading you was almost like reading myself, two very different situations but I also feel lots of guilt, this past 2 years I distanced myself from my dad, and I had all sorts of thoughts "I no longer want him in my life / If he wasn't in the house I'd be at peace / I don't care if he dies"... and in my anger, time went by, his health deteriorated and now he passed away almost unexpectedly. Reading what you posted, I relate, this is a pain that consumes you and I also feel It's for life, the ammount of regret I feel, not being grateful enough, taking things for granted... everything feels like a nightmare, I don't know if I'll be able to forgive myself but I truly hope you do someday

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