I have two 10 year olds. They want to know why I'm crying. They are already scared. The world is scary, school has been cancelled. They are already trying to make sense out of so much that is going on. I have to be tough. They need their mom. Being a mom comes first. Being there to make them feel safe is my priority and always will be. I just wish it wasn't such a struggle right now. I wish I could just break down and be emotionally absent, but that is not an option. Right now, I need to figure out tomorrow. Making sure they eat and have what they need is what's the most important. Being tough and objective when my mind wants to emotionally shut down is the hardest battle I have been through yet.