Yes, I realize all of those things, but that doesn't change the fact that it did hurt despite how wet I was. I found that I could only get anything in at a certain angle, and that made it comfortable.

I feel that I'm more sensitive to penetration than clitoral stimulation, but that's probably because I'm not used to it. I know that the vagina can't be irreversibly stretched or something. I guess I just meant that I didn't want to desensitize myself. I know that guys get death grip from masturbating and I didn't want the female equivalent of that. My ex had that problem when we were dating, so he could never climax without masturbating. I know that some girls have similar issues from using vibrators or dildos that are not the same size as their partner.

Also, thanks for your concern about the HPV thing. I got the Gardasil shot in middle school. I still don't really know what HPV is, so I wouldn't have not got it just because I'm not sexually active.

I'm glad that what I said was helpful in some way. Thanks for taking the time to write everything you did. Even though I know those things, now (I didn't when I was younger), it could still help someone else who reads these comments.