ahh... you sound exactly like me before i realized what the problem was. i know you left a piece out in what you said and that was what you thought all those people were thinking when they looked at you or how you felt in that situation you only gave actions you didnt give feelings. but the feelings is the problem part. the feelings is the reason you left and didnt stay. how you felt by being in that situation is the reason you left. ive done this soooo many times. anxiety isnt a one size fits all but because you said you cant act like this forever because its ridiculous makes me think perhaps you are somewhat like how was so i will tell you want "fixed" me. i stayed. i put myself in all those anxiety inducing situations on purpose and i stood like a god damn statue even if i had a panic attack....all those things i was worrying about and getting worked about happening....never happened. i wasn't convinced the first, second or third time ....it did take a while. but eventually when i kept putting myself in those situations and nothing bad happened my anxiety went away, somehow or another (i dont even know how it happend)but i had grown to fear normal situations and interactions. i also acknowledged that i wasnt always this way and i "decided" that i made myself this way and that "it" (anxiety) was controlling my life and not me. so i basically decided one day "it" could go take a running jump and that it was no longer going to control me. i found it really helpful to put anxiety in a little box basically marked as a "enemy". it wasn't who i am it was something that was attacking me and really it was ruining my life, it was separate from me. it was something that was ruining my life it was controlling my decisions and actions and i said fuck that shit it can get fucked then it was kind of a case of me vs anxiety. Obviously i dont know you so i dont know if that mentality will help but i saw it as me vs IT. and nothing or nobody is going to try and attack me and win. i saw what it was doing to me and i saw how it was altering my decisions and i saw how it was controlling my actions. Then i decided i was the boss and "it" was not going to control me. Glad to say i went from being a ball of anxiety mess to "normal" last time i had a panic attack was about 2 years ago when i was camping lol (moving from a country where your biggest danger is other people to a country with bears i didn't feel comfortable knowing there was a sheet of fabric between me and wildlife, heard lots of weird noises throughout the night that later turned out to be our neighbours rolling around on their air mattress) im still not a "carefree" person i do still worry a lot about things but anxiety no longer controls my life. (except for bears and cougars i dont trust my self to follow the guides on how to survive a bear or cougar attack....yano...dont run...this bitch gon ruuuuuun and then be ate....reason why i dont camp :D so TLDR: Tell anxiety to go fuck it self you are the boss and "it" is not going to control you. you are the boss, you got this "insert muscle flexing arm here"