I am glad that I don't have this kind of curiosity. When I heard about that video I thought that I didn't want to hear about it or read about it. I know people will watch it and share it. But I won't. That's fucked up. And my mind is already fucked up as it is. I am trying something new. Something positive. For a change. But yesterday I was at the hospital and in the waiting room they had a TV with the news on and they were talking about NZ over and over again. I tried to ignore it but I had to stay near that room and I could still hear it. Then I got mad and thought : who's the genius who decided to put a TV with these kind of news in a hospital waiting room where people are already feeling bad. I had a severe migraine going back home and felt like crap the rest of the day. It's hard to stay positive when our minds are saturated daily with these kind of images. It can lead to dysregulation of emotions which attracts events that make you feel just as bad.