You are making this way more complicated then it is. You are God, means that there is nothing more powerful than you, everything exists from you and everything you will need is you. If you say that someone will punish you, it will, but it is still your creation, everything is.

There is nothing to let go, there is no plan, there is no technique, religion or philosophy, that is stronger than you. All you need to do is center within yourself and feel and have and experience what you want. There is no right or bad actions.

All paths and beliefs are good, what you believe is good, because God I am, loves you unconditionally and you won't stop existing, no matter what you choose. So what this gives you? Full love and time and choice and belief to do what you want.

If someone is punishing you or will punish, then this being is no God, because God doesn't make mistakes by trying to correct it by changing and punishing you lol. Think about that. It's actually non logical to think that way. And there is no power in that.

So don't worry my friend, we all are together and everything is love, we all will be together and we will love you no matter what path will choose. You are love, God is love. Relax

Much Love!