I will try to keep my experience with antidepressants as short as possible.

I was feeling hopeless/depressed at 17 due to intense life circumstances. I went to the doctor and they put me on antidepressants. Everything got worse, and I became suicidal. They hired my dose two times.

After a long time, I decided to quit cold turkey and I went through withdrawals for weeks. Slowly, I started feeling better again.

In this period, every night before bed (I didn't know Neville) I imagined a better life for myself. Within half a year, I got out of depression and had an amazing life in the next few years. All my dreams came true.

I discovered Neville three years later and realized I was doing SATS back in the day, every night, for fun, without even realizing it. That's what carried me out of depression. You can read an old post of mine to see how I did it.

Also, I just did a bunch of research on antidepressants and it turns out in recent studies that depression is not a chemical imbalance at all. You can watch a recent video about this from "Therapy in a Nutshell" to make up your own opinion.

I want to note again, this is not medical advice.

In short; I believe my imagination got me out of depression, and antidepressants made life feel like hell on earth.

Hope this helps.