I met this long-time crush from a double date from about a month ago. It’s been so special and my heart feels full of gold. The issue now is I think I am falling apart internally. I have issues with depression and I quit my recent job because I had to go back to the office and I have to start a new one soon in June. My issue is I have extremely high dopamine cravings so during periods where I am not engaged in hobbies, I feel really bad. I tried the best from my end to do the best I can but I am falling apart internally. My dopamine cravings got high to the point that a lot of main activities aren’t as stimulating anymore. I want to talk to her about it but I also don’t want to be a burden on her academics. I still feel good when engaged in activities such as playing video games, working out, talking to other people, etc. but I think being out of work temporarily too is hurting me. I want to do the best I can from my end but I am falling apart on the inside now. I felt like going to India for a dopamine detox but I am not sure what is happening or what course of action to do right now.