I posted this elsewhere, but I'm adding to it, so blerg.

I think I'm going to lose a friend this weekend. It's been a long time coming, but we just don't work like we used to.

I can't have a conversation with him anymore. He vacillates between "America, Army, woo!" and starving artist self-pity and tumblr "Rawrg rascism kill all cops die scum fuck everything," and I don't think I can handle it anymore. He's not the person I became friends, and it hurts to finally admit that. Even in the past, when he had stupid ideas about the world, he was reasonable. Now, you say something that isn't in total agreement with him (god forbid someone suggests that a mostly correct argument is being presented in a way that hurts the people it seeks to protect), he flips out and goes on giant rants that basically boil down to "Media, patriarchy, abuse, racism, Islam, feminism, racism, public shaming, fuck the world!"

Apparently he's been forcing a lot of friends out of his life lately, and trading them for people he's met on tumblr. He comes to me and tells me how racist and shitty they are, and how he’s become such a better person since he got on tumblr, and he’s angry all the time. Today was the first time his ambient anger ended up directed at me, when I didn’t agree that that the media was grossly islamaphobic for not immediately stating that the Chapel Hill murders were a terrorist hate crime. He then goes on a giant rant about how he can’t believe some people are so ignorant and refuse to see the giant secret network of hate all around us and the conspiracy against non-white people in this country, and I just couldn’t talk to him. I signed out of chat about two hours ago, and I can’t log back in, I just… fuck. We’ve been friends for nearly ten years, and now he’s going to go off calling me a racist to anyone who’ll listen.

I guess I'd hoped he'd start to realize that as-radical-as-possible worldview doesn't work by now. I hope he can deal with the fact that he’s chosen conspiracy theories and hate over his oldest friend, but in the end, I think whatever happens, whatever he says, he’ll think it justified.