One thing I like about this platform is that its anonymous. When you meet someone, you never know what they are going through. People often get surprised that I'm unmarried and hit 30, but for over a decade I was going through spiritual problems. Like it's weird,walahi it feels like I was in a dark room for most of my life ,until I realised something was off and i only realised when i started practicing. I remember one of the first times I listened to ruqiyah and my eyes were blind folded so I could focus, walahi it felt like the ground opened and I was falling. Now I'm in a way better place, I feel like this hidden test made my faith stronger, I still have ups and downs but I know Allah is in control. I'm still trying my best to be consistent in quran and dhikr. I feel like when we go through trails we forget that there is an end to it and even then the trail itself could be a blessing. I think back, if I were not to be tested, I would probably move different and I don't think I'll be practicing.