I like that last plan. I'm going to give that one some serious thought.

Fuck cats. No more cats.

My cat is an awesome little dude. Don't diss my cat.

I think a good first place to start would be learning some better self-talk.

Y'know, I kicked the negative self-talk habit for a while, but it slunk back in. Not sure what happened there. I guess I'm just not sure what to replace it with. Like, I feel like saying "I'm awesome" sans sarcasm without actually being awesome is kind of... I dunno. I ended up just becoming really quiet. Even in my head.

just start working on your own personal budgeting and taxes and shit.

I do all those things. I'm not a wizard, by any means, but I try. The health thing... well, there is some major stuff that's gonna hit anywhere between tomorrow and ten years from now- I don't think there's any amount of preparing one can do for organ replacement.

you need to find a solution that will change that which probably means finding a higher source of income or radically changing your living situation. Sitting stalled in limp noodle mode on reddit complaining isn't going to do anything for you.

I have been trying to find a solution that doesn't involve me getting shot or going bankrupt. This is one of those places. Highest crime rates, largest gaps in wealth. But all my friends are here. I lucked out with my current place, but it's not gonna last. Roommate is getting "serious" with his girlfriend. And it's harder every time... I've thought about a condo, but I've heard stories about "special assessment fees..." Makes me skeptical. ... Also, if I do it on Reddit, I won't feel the need to do it to people I actually know.

Anyway, I do actually have hobbies that I greatly enjoy, do regularly, and even talk positively about. If they could produce a living wage, I would absolutely do those things. Maybe one day I'll get to the point where I can teach or something for supplemental income. I worry that I won't be able to afford them if rent keeps going up the way it is.

I'll take a look at some of the things you posted. I'm always up for a good read. Thanks.