Thank you so much for the very thoughtful and interesting answer. He was convicted of violent felony I think. He didn't tell me anything about it, I found out about it on my own (I have nosey friends who Googled him). It was a juvenile record but I think it still shows on internet.

I told him I know of his past and it doesn't change my opinion or love of him. That I think what I would want to hear. But I think from then on he decided that I am not going to stick around.

I actually became a doctor and my friends tell me that I remind him of his broken dreams and noone wants to live with that.

I told him he can move in with me while I am working in residency and work on a graduate degree but he said he doesn't want to hold me back, ruin my chances of becoming a great doctor. He offered me a car as a graduation present once I am done with residency, all his savings but won't commit (I didn't take any if those). Whatever I say he won't move in. But doesnt want to sever contact either forever. He just says he can't afford a relationship right now. By the time I am done with residency, if things do work out with us, a small part of me will think why didn't he commit when I wasn't making 6 figures, you know? So I wanted him to do something before I am actually making enough money for us.

He works minimum wage jobs, does whatever it takes to provide for his family. Doesn't sleep normally. I think about him every night and can't let him go. I worry that he drinks too much, doesn't sleep enough and has let go of all of his dreams.

he wanted to meet up to say goodbye before I move to residency but I refused. I can't say goodbye to him. It will make it real. Maybe when I say I want to help he looks at it as I won't stay? I don't know what else to do but to move on..