My best friend turned me down a little more than a year ago. We had the same classes and studied together in college, did clubs, lived close after graduation, hung out daily after work for months, would go hiking, knew her dad well ( we were old friends in elementary school but split dif schools), played tennis and went out to eat constantly. I confessed that I liked her while in the mountains, after I had just got her flowers for getting a job. She was georgious. She crushed my soul. How could a woman hang with a man almost every day on a personal 1v1 level, but not even like you, just see right through your integrity as a man? She never showed any true empathy and that's what hurt the most. Just " I never liked you and I'm sorry but I'm sorta dating someone right now (her GFs BFs friend, go figure)" 2 weeks after we had spent months hanging out together. Then she started ignoring me. I felt incredibly low, said so many mean things to her, hated her one second loved her the next, tried to accept it but couldn't, called her a trashy dumb cunt one day after randomly texting 2 months later asking me a stupid fucking question. A later told her sorry because I felt so bad, although she never showed any emotion in her text, I never knew what she was feeling. I told her that I didnt want to ever see her again. A black storm cloud of bitterness and hatred towards women was in my head for months and months. I was generally a respectable smart cool guy. But I had no respect for woman anymore. I was lonely and felt like no women believed in me (they just wanted to be my fucking friend, I have to many fucking whore friends, I want the affection god damnit.) so I was mad about starting over and literally not knowing anyone in the new area I moved. I had shut down Facebook and abandoned my friends (they all have hot GFs and I'm stuck as the 5th wheel, fuck that noise). I just didnt give a fuck anymore about the BS dating, about what people thought I was doing, all of that was garbage. I just decided to do things by myself. Which wasn't hard considering I had been feeling lonely long before this all happened. It wasn't a month later this chick asked a buddy and me to play tennis. She was cute a Lil older than me ( the older girls are the fucking best you better know that) she appeared lonely and had only lived there a year. I asked her to drinks after work the next day and we just enjoyed hanging out after that. I knew she was easy and vulnurable, she wasnt as hot as my friend, but has so many traits I admire in woman. She still hot tho ;). But her heart is on fire. She does everything she can to make me feel better. She has a doctorate, and she is a crazy freak of nature in the bedroom. The funny part is, this girl lived in the apt building right across the street, 50 yards away, the girl I wanted so much to have, just a girl who wasnt dramacentric and just straight forward. So yeah man, I still havent got the first girl completely out of my head. It still pains me. But I found a girl who treats me 10xs better than the other girl would ever have. So just keep cool man and trust me there is a girl who is willing to treat you soo much better right down the road, in the meantime forget about Facebook and all that social media garbage, only talk to your close friends. Fuck what Quanisha who you haven't talked to in years is eating on Instagram. Just isolate yourself and do things by yourself. You will finally feel okay when you have given up trying to impress others. Now is the time to delete yourself from the social circle and just do what the fuck ever you want. No one will even know, you have nothing to show or prove to anyone. You can thus focus on being yourself and creating who you want to be with no social BS pressure to be something you want everyone to see. This pressure lifted off you will make you mutch happier and allow you to make choices that benefit you for you.