It seems I accidentally caused us to go down two different comment chains, by replying to myself. I apologize. I think I understood your point mid-way through my other post; walking down an old path, may lead to new insight, essentially, I see where you may be coming from.

But I didn't mean to suggest time travel, myself. What I mean is; everything that is, is, but that doesn't mean it didn't influence who you are. Here's a simply analogy; you built a home around a rock, because it was in the way and you had no means to move it. 30 years later, the rock for what ever reason, does not exist. Well, your house still exists as it is. What point would there be to change it? Just ... For the sake of it?

Right now, the closest thing I have to social interaction is helping a relative ... Live, basically. They are disabled, physically. If there were no repercussions to my actions, I'd simply leave.

If I did something for myself, right now, I would leave society and probably not turn back. Would I survive? Probably not, but I don't think that is something I care about at this point.