I’ve been in a terrible relationship for the past 15 months. It’s was good at the beginning but then she started to lie about stuff which made me get so mad at her when she would do something wrong or something. I would bring up the lies she’s told me and then I would break up with her. Then I would come back to her over and over again. I knew I kept hurting her emotionally so I would try my best to stop and just move past the lies and be happy with her. I was able to work out stuff when bad things happened but I couldn’t keep it up for long and the cycle continued. Eventually I knew I had to leave her because I hurt her so much more than I made her happy. So I blocked her and didn’t answer her texts or calls when she would make new accounts or use other numbers to try to contact me. But then, she started saying she was going to hurt herself because nobody loves her and she’s worthless. I couldn’t ignore that because I loved her so much and I couldn’t let her do that. So I would come back and she wouldn’t do it. But then, shit happened I left again, and I blocked her. I tried not to talk to her at all because I felt she was just saying terrible things to get me back because she would so it so often. I didn’t answer until I got an actual picture and it made me so sad and I had to come back to make her stop. Things became good again but then she lied about more stuff so I left and then she kept making new accounts trying to contact me saying she’s worthless and how she’s gonna hurt herself. I would come back because I couldn’t let her do it again. I want to be with her because I love her so much and I don’t know how to live without her but I can’t because something always happens and the cycle continues right now we’re broken up because she lied again and now I made her stop hurting herself and she’s keeping that promise but now she’s resorting to other things like saying she’s gonna drink and drink and do drugs and I don’t know what to do anymore I need her but I don’t think I can go back to all the sadness I get from her lies. I want to be happy I want to be with her forever but I can’t because of the lies. I feel so empty without her but she always hurts me when I come back. And though I try not to the emptiness I feel and the sadness I have without her kicks in and I text her and we get back together with her. Then we break up and everything happens again. I don’t know what to do anymore. How do I not talk to her anymore for good how do I live without her