Im not lazy, every one tell me i cant keep being lazy i have to care more about thing etc but im not lazy i ve never being im just sad but im so stupid i cant even say that irl and i accept that im lazy and i dont give a shit about anything, but its not true i ve been living with ppl telling me this while feeling like a shit and still smiling every day and doing my best even if i feel like a meaningless shit i think im actually the opposite of lazy, but i just cant open to ppl doesnt matter how bad things are, buti think im getting better since a read a book it helpt me a little bit its called stormlight archive, atleastit help me to the point of telling this to internet ppl i dont meet, the next step is speaking this irl