Met a girl from the other side of the continent one summer. When summer finished, she texted me one day saying: "You know, you never asked me to be your girlfriend."
I hadn't planned on putting that kind of pressure on her, so I was kind of shocked. "Can I even do that?"
She said yes.

Long distance. About a month later she sends a text saying something vague, yet not-subtle-whatsoever like, "Babe, I think I have a problem with cutting people out of my life. I start to think of people as leeches when I realize they slow me down."
I tried the rather passive approach. "Is something bothering you? You know you can tell me, right?"
She brushed it off with a, "Oh, just thinking out loud :) " kind of message.

Another week later I get: "Babe, I'm really bad at keeping in contact with people!"
I was a little more forward. "Uh... we're dating long distance and you seem to be doing fine? Is there really nothing you want to talk about?"

Another week goes by and I get two texts apologizing for not talking to me.
"Babe, I haven't texted you for two hours! How do you put up with me?"
"Babe! It's been four hours! I'm awful!"

I knew what it meant, but I just waited thinking she'll tell me the truth eventually and at least I could say that I understood. I think I even joked, "And it's been 40 days since I saw you. Isn't Lent supposed to be over?"

Then I got broken up with. The reason? "I don't want to date anybody else for a long, long time."
I said, "That's fine, but I don't believe that reason."
She asked me why not.
So I told her pretty bluntly that it was a huge cliche, and then I tried saying I appreciated dating her before leaving. It was a maxed out text message and I get that sometimes huge walls of text scare people, but what happened next was shocking...
She told me to "Calm down before you hurt yourself."

Here's the thing: She was 200% right to break up with me. I was depressed and barely making any money and I probably went about trying to make her feel beautiful and appreciated in all the wrong ways.

But for a girl to basically make me ask her out and then be indirectly called a leech and condescended to?
Who in their right mind does that?

I quite simply do not trust what girls say when it comes to relationships anymore.

I am the guy who would rather just fuck a girl and then doesn't really care if he hears from her ever again, because I honestly don't know what I'd want her to say. I don't care, because I don't believe it. I'll hang out if you want, I may like you in a general sense, but I honestly just don't care if I see you again or not.

I feel alone. And I don't really feel like it's going to change anytime soon.