(a bit NSFW? if you know me in real life please just dont talk to me about this :'D)

My "Cuddle friend" aka my first sexual encounter.

When i was 6 or 7 or something, i used to play with this other girl who had moved to my country, we became pretty tight friends and in this "after school club" we had at my school there was this room with a lot of mattresses and pillows and stuff where kids could just have fun and go crazy, and me and this girl used to make like a pillow fortress (there was a list and you could have the room for an hour tops or so) and we put mattresses on the windows so we could have privacy.

I dont remember which one of us suggested it ( i think it was her??) but one of us said "lets cuddle in the fortress!" and let me tell you this fortress was very long but very tiny so we were pretty packed, and i remember somehow i got to lay on top of her and we were hugging, And her leg ended up between my thigs and we started rubbing up against each other.

We never kissed or touched skin to skin or anything but it felt very nice (only years later did i find out that i was sexually aroused) i even reached an orgasm a couple of times. (i don't remember if she did :/ )

we did this like 3 times a week i think? or more.

I was never embarrassed because i though we were just cuddling and making each other feel good. And she moved away after 1 months of "cuddling" and she told me it was because of her parents.

Only Years later in school when somebody told me she was coming for a visit to our school did i realise what we had been doing, and i was suddenly terrified that she might have told people, that she had become uncomfortable or told her parents and that was why she moved away (maybe her parents didnt want to cause a scandal or some shit) and that she was going to shun me as a deviant and i would be made fun of in public etc. (geez 7th grade me was a bit dramatic)

But she was pretty chill and was only there for 20 minutes and just said hello to everybody, and when she was gone i was just happy and hoped that now she would be out of my life forever and i would never have to think about what we did back then again.

Ive read a lot of stories on the internet about people masturbating at age 7, but for me its like, I was 6/7 and i basically had Lesbian dry sex with a classmate more then once.

Until today nobody has known about this.