I'm severely depressed but medicated. The medication seems to be working to keep me from getting desperately sad, but it doesn't work for inspiring me to be able to do stuff.

You've probably heard that people with depression stay in bed all day. I work from home, and mostly stay in bed all day. You've probably heard that people with depression can't bring themselves to shower. It's a chore for me, and I do it infrequently. You've probably heard that people with depression are sad and suicidal. Not me. I'm mentally fine.

I'm hopeless, but I don't mind. I'm paralyzed by apathy, and unmotivated to do small things like check the mail, or put the new toilet paper roll back on the dispenser. I sometimes don't sleep for days, and sometimes I sleep for like 20 hours.

My life is falling apart. I might get fired. Could be homeless soon after I suppose. I just don't care. I watch funny videos, and I laugh. I eat good food and I savor it. I don't mind being alive in this state. ...but I probably should care for self preservation. I can't bring myself to do it. And the longer I don't mind what happens, the further my life slips.