My biggest secret is that I'm in an abusive relationship with someone who will hurt/kill themselves if I try to break up with them. We were really in love once, but things got dark and she got controlling and possessive. She's extremely attractive, and I'm average at best. But, she's the paranoid one to the point of controlling my life to the point of not allowing me to see male friends, or even go to see my parents too often. She's shut herself off from everyone in my life, and her life, and pretty much only wants to spend time together. Our time together has gotten worse and worse to the point to where it is mainly just us arguing or sitting around doing nothing. We can't go in public because she accuses me of looking at other women, we can't hang out with friends because of course there will be girls in social settings, it feels like prison. I've tried to leave twice and both times it got super ugly, super fast, and I can't stand the idea of her hurting herself. I have a plan A and Plan B in the works now. I've gotten distant (which is hard because I love her) and I've started being less attentive to her, and I'm also acting sickly and less energetic and more depressive. My hopes is she will leave me in the next 3 months. If not, my plan B is to stay home from work one day...pack up her things and call her mom to come get her and keep her from doing anything bad. Honestly, saddest situation in my life...My college sweetheart just has something wrong in her head and can't be happy - and no matter how many attempts we have with therapy she just wont do anything about it. No one in my life knows it is this bad...