Not my partner anymore, but she had bad anxiety attacks. We were laying in bed watching a movie when she started having one. I'm pretty much just holding her until she's done (felt like ages) and goes to wash up and she instantly falls asleep when she gets back in bed. I turn off the TV and just think about how helpless I felt when she was hyperventilating, shaking, sobbing, having the anxiety special in my arms. About 15 minutes later her phone starts buzzing like crazy. I pick it up and apparently she had posted on some mental health sub asking for advice. She stated how bad her anxiety was getting and she was afraid to tell me because I also have bad anxiety and she knows I'm a worrier. She said in her post that she felt bad whenever she had anxiety attacks around me. I can't remember all the details, its been quite a while now, but it broke my heart. I felt truly helpless seeing how much pain she was in. Selfish me was also hurt she didn't talk to me directly (in hindsight, kinda insensitive). For whatever reason I never told her I saw her post, but I started asking what I could do to help when she gets like that. I still worry about her. We haven't talked in a over year.

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I'll also never tell my other ex that I shit my pants at the super bowl party. I just remember thinking "damn my balls are sweaty right now." Went to the bathroom and sho'nuff, I shitted. No clue how I didn't stink up the car on the drive back to her place.