I'm a crier, I'm not ashamed of it either!!

Tonight a guy I work with who I also dated, turned close friend, turned nothing texted me asking for a favor. So I was like, oh you just need something from me. He said yes. And that if im gonna try to be in his life he might as well be nice. So that really broke my heart. Because I do want to be in his life, but he only sees value in me if I can provide something, and it breaks my heart because I still care a lot. Like, ugh oh you're there, I have tocacknowledge you, instead of wanting to be there.

On TOP of that he told one coworker that he was using me, and she DID tell him that it was fucked up so I'm thankful to her. And then asked another, who he KNOWS is my best friend, if I was mad and it was wrong of him to ask. He pretended not to know, but reminded me that this man only comes to me when he needs something and to just ignore him completely as hard as it is for me. And he's right, and it hurts a lot.

THE WORST PART, I almost agreed until my best friend laid into me about trying to be around him and told me he thinks this man has treated me horribly

So. There it is lol