Thank you for your eloquence in verbalizing the experience. I snapped in 2013 and again last year and dropped out of society and changed my name. It isn't like I didn't try to get help for 20 years, but I need a flow chart to show how broken the systems are that are supposed to help people like me are broken in America. And people want to fault ME for it. Like, surely the systems aren't that broken, she's just stupid and lazy.

Meanwhile, they have never had to navigate the systems themselves, who are they to judge me. Fuck this, I'm out, I said. Being homeless is about 100 times better at this point than trying to fit into society when the American healthcare system won't let you get pills or decent therapy, and I'm on Medicare! We're guinea pigs at this level if we do get therapy. Always some hopeful grad student that hasn't quite realized yet how fucked the industry is they are going into. Eventually they realize it, then they just take their frustration out on their clients. I am so done with this shit. And when I post this on Reddit, some chucklehead always thinks they could have done better, and tells me to get help. Like they didn't even read my words. I get GPs on Medicare who can't even prescribe psyche meds, so what is the point? I gave up. 20 years of this shit.