I don't know. What scares me the most about the idea of parenting is the mental toll that comes with it. My anxiety is already awful and I know that the fears of shaping a human being are much worse than anything I've faced in my life so far. I genuinely like children and I don't think many of the reasons that go around bother me much (lack of sleep, noise, kids being annoying, that sort of thing). I could handle that, but the thought of postpartum depression makes me shrivel up inside. I'm also terrified of the possibility of having a child with special needs, I don't think I would be cut out for that. My goals for my career mean that I won't have as much free time in the future (if everything works out as planned!) so if that happened, I would either have to give up my dreams and my job or be a neglectful parent. I think if I could have 100% certainty that I would not have a child with disabilities I would perhaps consider having kids the tiniest bit, but even the odds of that happening are enough to make me not want to do it. I think every kid should have a parent who is willing to give them everything in life and I don't think that's me, so I won't be having them.