i’m 19 as well and i don’t go to those lengths but i drink every day and without it i feel like i’m gonna blow the place up if i don’t get it. it’s not that intense but i just always feel like i need a drink. i realized today that this cycle of drinking is affecting me so negatively so i decided to cut back on the drinks. what i’m planning to do is drink a little less each week until it becomes none and then drink once a week on the weekends and not let it become a problem. please just stay strong and let yourself be the first person to say “hey i have a problem enough is enough” and work on it. that’s exactly what i’m doing. i wish you the best of luck on your journey