I've tried AA a couple of times, had a sponsor and followed the steps. This was recently after the 'life event'. The people who were there and helping me along were great but their whole life focused around recovery and nothing else. They didn't want to do anything other than maybe go out to eat. I will try again and will look for some local meetings.
Found local meeting
I have been sober for 2 days now and have made a list of things to do tomorrow. Tomorrow cause want to sign up for gym and this place is dead on weekends.
Usually I mentally make a list but this time I wrote it out, added details and times these things need to be completed, as well printed it and stuck it up around the house and in my car. I've just reprinted the list with an added AA meeting.
I think I am stir crazy, bored, isolated and I have no friends. Shortly after 'the event' I had to relocate and move in with a family member as I burned all my bridges and went through all my savings (some were medical costs). Everyone I used to know here is either dead, a junkie or moved away. It is hard to meet new people my age. People my age in the area have appear to have their shit together and are married with kids. I have facial tics and walk with a limp 'since the event' I am very self conscious about it and encountering new people is extremely awkward for me (that is on me and I am working on it).
I have been applying for work but it is hard to find one in my field that hires part time (medical limitations). My last job, I was able to transition to full time because they agreed after lock down, I would be able to do half the job from home. Sorry... I'm rambling.
I'm hoping once I get a week or so into sobriety and eating right I may start to feel less like shit... have a more positive outlook. It's just I have this impending sense of doom. Like shit is going to really hit the fan. I understand that type of thing is linked heavily with mental illness but after poking around a bit, I think it is not just me that has this feeling. IDK. Thanks for listening