You gotta quit cold turkey. I've been in the deepest of holes - a fifth and a half a day for two years straight. The thing you have to do is quit and never go back. Any urge to do it should be extinguished immediately and without second thought. Alcohol is the Devil's piss - you would rather God's light right? Don't indulge. I once was drinking every hour for a year straight (during my three year psychotic binge) - it never ends well. It doesn't matter what the circumstances in your life is going on, you have to quit! Symptoms of withdrawal are nothing, it just means your body is adjusting to living without the manipulative poison (promoted by your government to stupidity condition you). I had many hiatus and then fell back into the trap, don't fall back into the trap. QUIT NOW.