I don't know how long, why or if I will after reading all the articles on this. lol still living & doing heaps, It's easy to meet, date, fall into another relationship with someone or pickup to have sex with anyone for that's how men mask their self belief in moving on & yes it does work explicitly! I've had ample & I'm talking double digits in 6~7 weeks yet I'm not interested for yes sex is great! Love is something else on a emotional connection that surpasses sex anyday. To me anyhow. So in the mean time I've been actively going to a weekly session at a group therapy class & it has helped, therapy to ensure I'm on the right track & someone to privately talk about it too. I'm not one to bore my friends for who wants to hear heart ache drama. People do judge, & no matter how great a friend they will tire of you being a parrot;) Doing activities what I love doing-which I haven't done for years(before I met her), conquered a fear-skydiving! Becoming fitter & yes I do believe now your body is just as important to being a better man/woman for health reasons, endorphins are fantastic, our appearance does improve our interactions. I never thought I'd say this-EVER! It feels good to have a six pack after so many years again, not that anyone has seen me with my shoe off lol! The big one is admitting what we did wrong & then make the necessary self growth/changes permanent ones! How many of us do this? I've said it in my past & tentatively did. That's why Im happy in waiting & if it doesn't happen, I know I've given & tried my best, I'm healing properly & am better for it. By then I will be ready & not jump into another relationship & repeat my same mistakes. I'm nearly half way through my life maybe more. I've had a long term Love-14 years my longest, short loves over a year, casual friends;), things many only see in movies or in their wildest dreams, yet none of it compares to Real Undying Infinite Unconditional Love. I won't settle for anything less.