Have you had sex yet? I lost my virginity to a prostitute in Amsterdam when I was 18 and then a few other times with prostitutes until my 30’s. It suited me because I wasn’t ready to change and had no social flirting skills. I ask this because confidence in the bedroom is important, what I learned the past two years is that having the confidence to ask her about anything you need to ask about is straight up empowering. Watch and listen to some “how to” videos about sex. My current gf (met her at the start of September) has been the most amazing person in my life in years! She really couldn’t believe that my oral skills came from watching some 10 minute video on pornhub and paying attention to here body. You will find that special someone and you’ll find each other sooner than you expect. You’ve got to put yourself out there though buddy. Rip that bandaid off about feeling weird or awkward about dating. Make an ass out of yourself and get rejected a 1000 times but do it honestly! What I did was ask my friends about it and let them know I was finally ready to date. They were delighted to talk to me about it, might be different for you because at your age people are very caught up in their own drama but still, it’s a weird feeling opening yourself up for romance. But it sounds like you are ready to be one half of a beautiful thing :)