Yeah, rejection sucks. I've been there; being a floater isn't much fun. It's always nice to have an inner circle, but it's super hard to be yourself and developed those genuine connections when you're trying to be popular; I used to do stuff for the bravado all the time and I hated it. Even the group I was trying to impress found it obnoxious. I would idealize a group to an unrealistic extent, then when I finally managed to become apart of it, I realized how little I had in common them. In my opinion, it's better to be genuine and get rejected than it is to present to be something your not. Rejection is a good thing, after all, you wouldn't want to waste your time with a group of people that don't care as much as you do. One-sided relationships of any kind are the worst! You should consider telling the group how you feel, initiate the conversation. Tell your favorite members you'd like to speak more often. I understand where your coming from with the whole no messages thing, I used to be the same. Just because you don't have stuff to do doesn't mean others don't either. Indulge the conversations you have when you have them, try to find an activity to keep yourself occupied when you don't. I'm sure your friends will reply when they can, they are your friends after all. Just don't let their schedules interfere with your mindset. :-)