Hey there, I smoked all day every day for about 15 years (at least 2g a day) and have only just quit, going on day 3. This sub is absolutely fantastic for people like us because it's a constant reminder that as shitty as we feel, we are certainly not alone.

Some thoughts from my experience so far. The one thing that I keep to the front of my mind is that unless I want to smoke for the rest of my life, this is something that I just need to get through. It's fucked man, I was so depressed I wouldn't leave my room in weeks, eating only delivered food because the idea of going to the shops was too much. That personal hell space? Every night when I'm trying to sleep. For hours. Just lying there absolutely mortified at my own life.

Day one was like a constant itch. A severe one that I wanted to scratch. To get through it I just focused on time... It's a bit weird but I just kept saying to myself that every moment not getting high was one moment closer to being free. I want to be able to deal with life and get some self respect back.

Sleeping has been a mess. I'll be exhausted, but as soon as I get into bed my brain seems to have forgotten its 'off' switch. I'm so used to passing out that I've forgotten how to sleep.

Last night I actually got some sleep, but woke up every few hours drenched in sweat and shaking. It was pretty horrible, but as another user on this forum pointed out, it's just my body detoxing and freaking out because of the lack of weed. Now in my head, every time I wake up sweating I'm going to think of it as a positive thing. Just one more step closer to being free.

Make this personal for yourself brother/sister. Make yourself see that these are steps that we just have to take in order to get over this addiction. I always used to wonder how addicts were not able to see how easy it is to stop - all you have to do is not smoke. It's that simple. And it kinda is... If you completely ignore your brain and body, and just remember that no matter what happens you're just not allowed to toke up.

I went for like a 6k walk when it was completely dark outside (I haven't done exercise in years) and it was amazing and gave me a lot of time to think while making sleep a little easier to come. I'd suggest it.

Don't worry about making too many changes to your life, don't make it any harder for yourself than it needs to be. Just focus on not smoking.

I hope some of that helps, this sub has been amazing to read through for me so I'd love to be able to give something back. If you need anyone just to shit talk to about this (I've found it helps immensely) I'm here a lot.

Good luck man, this is the first but hardest steps into a really different future than we ever imagined for ourselves. Imagine what life could be like for you if it wasn't totally dominated by the need to get high?