i feel great actually. I been in therapy for 7 months as well.The real turning point for me was 3 months into being clean my uncle had a stroke. He is my Dads older brother and they are only 10 years apart. This man is like a second father to me. He used to come over every Sunday and watch football and eat. My uncle pre stroke was a pretty healthy guy walked about 7 miles a day. He lived about 30 minutes away from us. One sat evening he was supposed to come down and visit because my cousins from out of town were at my house. It was getting late and he was not at my house yet so my dad figured he would call him. My Dad calls my uncle and the phone is answered but he cant hear anyone on the other line. My dad looks at me and my cousins and says "i just tried calling your uncle and i couldn't hear anyone on the line.". We told him it was probably a but answer and to try again. My dad calls my uncle again this time on speaker. MY uncle answers but all you here is this eerie breathing in the phone. I swear on my life it was the creepiest thing i have ever heard. My face turned white as my cousins did and my dad was in shock. My mom an ex long term care facility manger who was in the kitchen overheard all this and "yells call 911". My dad had me dial 911 while he just kept saying into the phone "jeff you are going to be alright just keep breathing." . I got in touch with the cops, and we told them to go break down his door and what not. So now i hang up with the cops. My dad is still on the phone with my uncle who is breathing into it. We then hear the cops get there because my uncles phone is still on obviously. It is silent for a few moments. I hear a paramedic talking asking him questions but there is no response from him. I hear a paramedic say to another " i wonder if he normally talks". At this point im horrified considering he was the loudest person i knew. He survived this ordeal because my dad called him. The hospital said he was laying on the ground fighting and banging for at least 19 hours by the way his wounds formed. We went to his house the next day to see what could of happens since he couldn't tell us when we saw him in the hospital. When at his house his neighbor next door saw us and approached my dad in tears. Apparently she heard him banging all night but thought hes a nice guy no big deal. My dad reassured her its not her fault. The whole experience was life changing for me and cemented my commitment. I have been with him through every hospital and rehab he has been to since. I see him everyday for hours on end. It has been 4 months since his stoke and i never seen a human being be so resilant. He went from being fully paralized to the point where he is walking a few 100 steps a day with a cane. He went from only being able to say buh duh too full sentences if you sit there and help. Everyday i spend time working with him and all the amazing therapist, friends of him, and my family. He helps me heal and i help him. I wish it was like this before all this but im 100% committed to this. I love my uncle he helped save my life and its a honor being able to help save his every single day. Being clean is great.