I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for your reply.
If you go back a couple of pages in my post history, I do give a clue as to why I'm feeling more and more frustrated about this.
I'm trans, and I also, at least for a while, was still holding on to my faith. I've tried - I've tried SO hard - to make it work. Because at times I'm convinced that taking both walks at the same time has helped build bridges and understanding I'm convinced would not exist, nor exist for me specifically, otherwise.
In so, SO many ways I've felt like transition was THE answer to my prayers. Fervent, deep prayers starting from when I was like five and six that God would switch me over to being a girl while I was asleep. That I'd wake up the next morning female. I prayed, I prayed hard, and I prayed often.
I discovered what transition was, and I saw therapists and I prayed on it, repeatedly, and eventually, I came to a point where I saw two paths - one was transition, the other one was a dark path right off a cliff. Or building. I definitely saw jumping in my near future though.
I'm in probably the most healthy place I've been since I was a kid. Because I trusted the feelings in my heart and soul and that if this was a thing entered into my life, it wouldn't happen unless God allowed it to happen.
I think it's all this recent bathroom bill nonsense that's finally broken my spirit. On first or even third look, I'm basically all lady. It's been a solid almost year since I've heard someone use the word "sir" with me - and I work in a public facing job. And now I have two states where large groups of people - almost all of whom identify as Christian - have personally banded together to make my life harder. If I try to go to the bathroom in North Carolina, I can literally be arrested (if not worse) for using the women's room, and I definitely don't like my odds in a men's room.
So I've got the hateful bigots of America suddenly all with their crosshairs right on me, all while claiming the cross as their own - and then on the other side I've got very kind and well-meaning people who can't help but bring up phrases like "homosexuality and other sins" and "your lifestyle" and bringing up "Jesus dined with tax collectors and prostitutes" (I swear, I hear that one one more time and I'm going to SCREAM).
You know what my evil, immoral, clearly just horrible LGBT agenda is? I want to earn enough money to be comfortable and be able to give, meet a nice man, settle down, adopt a few kids (or help raise stepchildren or there are several options here). Raise a family, work hard, give what I can, and occasionally take time out to thank God for the blessings I've gotten in my life. THAT is my transgender agenda (transagenda?).
I am so tired of being made to feel wrong, and it's mostly people of a religious affiliation causing it. And I am just so tired of people using the Bible, and other ancient books of increasingly questionable merit, to make me feel less than.