My main problem with organized religion is there are so many interpretations. What you end up believing relies heavily on the Pastor or Priest that you're listening to every weekend.

My parents went to two very different churches. One spoke of trying to be more like Jesus to fulfill your holy duties, the other spoke of the End of Times and prophecies and how we need to repent or go to hell. I was awestruck at the contrasts, even though they're the same religion. I would watch as people willingly gave money to "God" and I wondered how God would use money. The obvious answer, is he wouldn't. If an almighty God is so powerful, he doesn't need donations to make things happen. Since this realization I firmly believed that tithe was a scam and even wondered if the Pastors believed the bullshit they were spewing out of their mouths or if they were amazing scam artists. One Pastor was fired after stealing from the church systematically for months and that only reaffirmed my theory.

For a while I was atheist, then agnostic when I realized there might be something out there. Now I'm reading into Buddhism and am very intrigued by their practices - all whilst not worshiping a God. Zazen, the art of meditation, has been practiced by them for centuries. Recently there have been a plethora of studies that prove the benefits of meditation. Buddhism is way ahead of it's time. I consider myself a Buddhist. Which makes me spiritual, not religious.

(And of course I did research on all of the Christian debunks when I was in my doubting phase. I told myself I was Christian for years before realizing that I've been lying to myself. Nothing in my life has given me any reason to believe in a higher power - or at least one that actually gives a fuck about his "sheep")

How did you look past all of this? What is your proof that God actually cares about you; that he gives a fuck?