I’m currently experiencing the same revelations. Finally had the courage to get sober after years of drinking and smoking to repress my memories. Always refused to seek professional help as I have always seen therapists and the like as charlatans (my Nmom is a CBT who had an affair with one of her patients and later married him. He physically and verbally abused me from the age of 14-18 and she did nothing to stop it). Only now am I starting to realize the depths of her and my biological fathers abuse. They are the victims in every situation, controlling, manipulative, never ending gaslighting and deflection. I owe a debt of gratitude to everyone in this sub. It was all of your posts that made me realize I am not alone and these feelings of depression, anxiety, and anger are indeed normal after the trauma we have experienced. Much love to all of you ❤️