Man/Girl you know those hesitations are keeping us alive. Because you know damn well you don't get a second chance at this.

I remember a time in 2014 March, I'm doing my compulsory military service. First time in my life I see a place where they give no fucks to human rights. I'm at my breaking point, early morning an hour of cleaning everyday. I broke one of the portraits in my designated cleaning area, holding that broken glass shard to my neck.

When you get that close to death, you know who you think of? The people who you know that loves you! You know damn well who they are, family and friends. You gonna say your family hates you? Well I hate them as well but if one were to die I'd cry for a week mate and grieve for a year. You're saying you've no friends? I'll say you actually have a dozen people that care about you, you're just not giving them enough attention. When was the last time you arranged a night out? Or called them to just say you missed how their voices sound. That sounds creepy to you? That's actually one of the best things a person can say.

Never give up man. Seriously my lifetime achievement will be my suicide. Never when I feel despair though! I'll succeed and be fucking awesome again! Then at the top of my life I'll decide if I actually love living or if I wanna die. Push for that, push for the awesome. Then you get to decide. If we give up now, we're quitters, just a bunch of whiny bitches ;) Just keep that in your mind.