I am in a similar department as you, except I fucking hate incels and braincels. I'm convinced that I'm ugly and not worthy or deserving of love. I have an amazing psychologist/therapist and she does wonders for me. I realize no one owes me sex or affection or anything. But it hurts. It really does hurt. I feel out of place here too. I'm too much of a "chad" for r/ForeverAlone and too "forever alone" for other subreddits. I've had sex twice, but most of my relationships are long distance and don't last long. I'm working on myself for now but I'm still convinced that I'm not human and don't deserve to have human emotions and that I will die alone. I've fucking developed feelings for my therapist because she is relatively close to my age and is everything I want in a woman. I've seen her for a year and she has never once insulted me or called me sexist or put me down or sided against me. She is extremely open and understanding and actually gives a damn about me. Idk what my point is. Just please unsubscribe from incel subreddits.